forgetting how to live...

So, first of all, I know I haven't written in forever. And I've actually had a few things to write about, just not very much time. I attended a surgical conference and presented a poster. My outlook on work has been far less hopeless than its been for basically the last 1.5 years and we've had a few shake-ups in our class. But today, I'm writing about day 2 of my no plan vacation.

I am currently on the coveted 9.5 day vacation (Thursday call followed by a pre-vacation weekend off). It is indeed one of those vacations perfect for a long trip, I will however be stuck spending my 30th birthday golden vacation here in beautiful Durham, NC. Its Sunday night at 9pm and I have no idea what to do with myself. My husband and I just came from watching a movie. We went out last night for a joint birthday celebration for me and my co-resident and I cleaned the house Friday during the day. I have no conference to read for or cases to prepare for and although I could just read for knowledge, I feel thats a pretty pathetic vacation move. Its too early to go to bed, but too late to go anywhere. The Hawks are on TV. What am I supposed to do? What do normal people do on Sunday night at the end of a weekend off? I have no idea. So, I decided to write about it - not because its so interesting, but mostly because it gives me something to do with this nervous energy. I've forgotten how to be normal. After a weekend of normal sleeping patterns, I don't have the urge to just pass out like I normally do with every precious free moment. I actually managed to stay awake during the movie for the first time in a long while. If only I knew how to relax on a Sunday evening, then all would be perfect.

On a random note, my husband and I are trying to watch all the Oscar nominated movies using RedBox. So far we've done "The Hurt Locker" and "Up in the Air." Next up will be "Precious." Just finished Up in the Air today, it started out to be pretty much just a regular movie, but in the end its well done, makes you think a little. The Hurt Locker, also really good but not the greatest movie ever, lots of predictable parts, but again, its a thoughtful movie. I'm still waiting to be blown away. The Hurt Locker and Up in the Air were also both very relevant to the times. Oh, and "Up"! We saw that a few months ago (also from RedBox) - its awesome!

FYI - Don't be surprised if I come at you with another entry in a few minutes in my quest to determine something to do with myself before I reach an acceptable time for sleep.