Writing myself happy

Ok, so I'm descending deeper and deeper into a hole of misery and I'm officially declaring it done.  For the last few days I've found the misery to be more comfortable to any attempt at positivity, but enough already.  I keep focusing on everything that is horrible and letting the great stuff that happens just slide by.  I get so sad about not having time to spend with my husband that I'm polluting the little time we get. We both are, we're both so tired and overworked that we're shortchanging ourselves.   I'm writing it out, writing it over.  I embrace the parts of surgery that I love, I embrace happiness.  I embrace trusting myself and will hold to the belief that despite the negative and weak people in my work life, my hard work will ultimately speak for itself.  I am happy to go to work tomorrow.  I will learn.  I will have new experiences.  I will take steps towards becoming the surgeon I am meant to be.